June 25th, 2008
Months of reasonably successful sleeping tricked me into thinking I might be transforming into one of those normal people who just sleep when they’re tired. But ha ha, it was just a trick. Woke up this morning at four to pee and haven’t been back to sleep yet. I finally gave up, got up, and cleaned the living room. I feel like four pounds of shit in a three pound bag. But startlingly awake and alert! I can actually feel my eyes opening as wide as possible. It’s enraging, basically.
When you are an insomniac, being tired has nothing whatsoever to do with sleeping.