September 26th, 2009
I am back. I don’t imagine there are many of you left but I am away from home and that always makes me pensive, and then add being at the apartment alone plus the rye I had at dinner plus the song I posted last time I was here (Remember? Isn’t it a sad song?) and you get a blog post.
I am a creature of habit, more so than most people I think. When I hit on something I like I will stick with it for a long time. For example if I really love a song I can listen to it over and over for hours at a time. Or several hours at a time, every day for weeks in a row. I have been ordering the same sandwich at Subway two to four times a week for the last three years. I have certain books that I have been reading once or twice a year for over a decade. I only use one brand of toothpaste, the brand I’ve been using since childhood.
What I am saying is I like predictability and on the personality scale “openness to new experience” I score low. Travel is new experiences – travel upsets me greatly. Even though I am staying with a great friend and even though I am on a fantastic course, I really just wish I was home.
Strangely, I used to live here (I am on the east coast), but that doesn’t seem to be helping. In fact every time I see some familiar sight from my time here, I get a wave of loneliness that I just can’t explain. So I am finding it very painful to be here.
Still, despite it all, I am glad I came. I have had other experiences this week that have changed me for the better I think, and so it is not all gloom and doom.
Just some of it. Particularly at this moment.